Forgotten

With each breath that I've survived ,
from the moment you made me make you leave,
gives me vague relief.

You being there,
it was so much easier.

Only that it passed with flash of comfort,
Yet, made me forget how to  have a life without you.

Donno how long will I be able to hide myself in disguise,
Or how much will I be able endure this curse.
Life ahead of me feels so cold now.

Soon no longer will I know
who you are,
Or even forget what you ment to me,
But I'm  not sure if i'll be finding another reason for my heart to go on.
And i'll definitely try to resist,
it if not help myself redeem it.

Part of me is lost now, survival seems so burdensome.
Wondering,
Did It make any difference,
That my heart knew, this would happen.

It was so much easier,
You being there.

With each breath that I've survived ,
from the moment you made me, make you leave,
gives me a vague relief.

here is my story

... evenings dark  yellowish red sun penetrates my heart.
   
The cool dry bridges rubs my skin.
It chokes me and wakes me up from the deapest sleep  of siesta.
And I happen to feel nothing for a while.

Then slowly  I muster up courage to breath and dare to get out of my numbness and touch the deep  hole  i've in my chest  and that it would never fill  no matter what.

No matter I  get the fullfillment for a while or forever ,eternity  of time seems  inadequate.
Moments seem  fading away fast,

faster than I could gather up some ,

for the rest of my breath  to hold on. 

And then it takes the fullest of my efforts to come out of my missing and smile.